Empty & Confused

Its so confusing how life is.. But i know we all have to go through rough times in order to be stronger and learn wisdom.

Sometimes I wish everything went perfect for me. But its not always the case.
I often wonder if I chose to take the bad path that is making me feel the way I do.
But I still believe that a step in the wrong direction is better than staying in the same spot all ur life, because then you cannot correct ur mistakes and learn from it to better yourself.

Love? How does one know when you are in love? How do you know if you love someone? Or if you still Love someone and the difference between being in love with someone.
If you have been with a person for the longest and all of the sudden things just started falling out of its place. Are you to blame yourself?

Fear? How do you fight it? How do u break away from the comfort zone that has always surrounded you and probably learn to fight your biggest enemy in life?

Forgive? How do u really forgive someone? That comes from within... how do u forgive the things that shattered your broken emotions? How do you forgive yourself?

Let go? It is so easy to tell people to let go.. but how do you let go to really end and forget the emotions that went along with it?

Trust? after all the pain and suffering.. how do you trust again... and How do you trust yourself?

I guess before we get from this end of the room to the door we need to take a step... there is no way we r getting out of this rooming without making these steps...

I hate feeling this way but its a part of growing up.. i guess?

lol.. so I said to be continued like 3 months ago... lame I know...

unlike ashley here... updates her damn blogspot so damn much.. even does it before she eats breakfast in the morning! haha .. on blast i know!

So here goes... I am finally updating this...

My name is tin, and if I was given a chance to have my own reality show... boy oh boy.. u would be glued to ur tv's lol.

The picture above is moi =) The anorexic brats dolls.. =)

I just started back at my job today... I had a vacation and got to see my future reality show co stars.. the glam squad.
Pretty interesting things that had happened... right girls?? That's Hollywood for you I guess...
funny how u meet ppl in Hollywood and they tell you they hate Hollywood ppl, when they fit the perfect description of what they have expressed to dislike.

To me its whatever now.. if you think Im such an LA girl... you haven't seen anything yet! hahah

Anyway... I have come across the most interesting individuals for these past couple of months! Even felt like Bonnie with cops all around the place!! Who would have thought I would be put in such situations... crazy...

I wish I could just mention it all in direct here.. but you know... kinda creepy.

Once upon a time I used to blog so much... this lame individual had stolen all my pics and copied and pasted all my posts and posted it all over the internet... sheeesh.. I didn't know my life was that interesting.

Im really more about randomness and indecisiveness living in the most dramatic life... haha..
I cant help it... excitement just keeps on chasing me i guess.... Hmmm so this 2nd posts is starting to sound very vain.... and ur wrong! Im just thinking and typing thoughts to myself, I guess...

So Anyway I am over typing already.. I am the most laziest person ever... So here are some pictures from this week end... @ the basketball game.. Always the most fun with the squad

my first blog

I thought i would start this... and randomly post my thoughts that I keep and hold on to.

Today is not the best for me.. actually... lately it has not been the best for me...

Like i said before...

Just because i SMILE it doesn't mean I am Happy... because all it takes is one smile to hide a million tears ='(

to be continued...