As I lay here thinking,
will I be here this very moment?
Would I have felt this pain..
If I had not caught that plane.
I managed to catch that flight
not knowing who was awaiting.
My heart pounded nervously
As I walked towards the double doors.
Not knowing who awaits,
there you were standing still
as my face glows and blossom,
I couldn't explain why
I fell so fast
dove in without caution
I had not a single worry in the world
at that very moment,
I was ready to give you my all.
Just when I thought everything
was going beautifully unplanned.
Woke up to a peculiar feeling
one I could not explain.
I pushed that feeling aside,
believed it was insecurity.
And refused to let it in.
It was time for you to catch that flight
a tear came down my face
I waved goodbye til the double doors shut.
And off I stepped back into reality.
Slowly adjust to my cold world
didn't take long til I heard the word.
My heart was racing angrily
I ran because I could not breath.
Tears came pouring down my face
In my cold world I gave you my all!
The glow you brought to light up my face
had turned my rosey cheeks to pale.
Should I have caught that flight?
Would we have had this child?
- Christine Samonte
